Cold

Cold is what I feel everyday. Everyday since you’re gone. Everyday since you left me here, waiting and freezing. Not cold on the outside. My skin is warm under these clothes. But I’m frozen inside. My heart stopped beating. Sometimes I wonder if I’m still human. I wonder what did I do wrong. I wish I could run away with you. Away from here, away from this nightmare. I wanna feel the heat of your body, the beat of your heart. The sound of your breath on my neck. I want you to set me on fire like you always used to do. But you probably found someone else by now. While I rot here alone. But it’s ok, I know someday I’ll find someone that won’t leave me waiting in the cold. Or at least I hope so.

Time Wasted, Emotions Crushed

I don’t wanna smoke all these cigarettes no more. You are my disease, you are my addiction, you are my life. Shouldn’t it be my life? It seems like everything is always spinning around you. What about me? I’m the one who cares about you. I’m not the one who is gonna hurt you. Why can’t you see that? I can honestly say you've been on my mind since I woke up today. Everyday. Am I on your mind? Are you even thinking about me? God, I hate these doubts. I feel like I’m wasting my time. I feel like I’m wasting my emotions. I’m always the one chasing you around. I wanna be chased around. I wanna have someone that loves me like I love you. Is that too much to ask?

Not Meant To Be

Isn’t there any button that you can press to erase the past? To erase all the memories that I have of you? To forget that you ever existed, forget that you were a part of my life, a part of me and forget that you took a piece of my heart when you left, that’s what I want. I wanna forget you said goodbye. I wanna forget you said you didn’t love me. I wanna forget I used to be your mannequin. You were my last, my first. You were my all. Or at least that’s what I thought. I guess it was not meant to be. Now all that’s left to do is pick up the pieces and try to put my heart back together. Alone. And start over.

More than what you made of me

It was great while it lasted, don’t get me wrong. I thank you for the happy times, when you made me feel like I could fly. And I’ll try to forget the times when you left me drowning on my own tears. From now on, I’m gonna be who I wanna be, I’m gonna do what I wanna do. I’m gonna be happy. I wanna be happy. And with you, well, I’ve seen that happiness is not a certainty, is not even a possibility. You crush my heart more than you put a smile on my face. And I’m sorry, but that’s not gonna work out for me. Once again, thank you for showing me the way to where dreams come true. I may not be the one you’re looking for, but I’m definitely much more than you deserve. Goodbye. I’m more than what you made of me.

Broken

I just want to lay on your chest and feel your heart beating. I just want to hear your voice in my ear, saying "I love you". I just want to kiss you and say that we're forever. I just want somebody to love. I just want you. But I gave you my heart and you crushed it. This scar won’t heal. You broke me, you broke us. You burned what we was left of me in your heart, so if I was in it someday. That’s what hurts the most, not knowing if you have ever truly loved me. Why did you wait me to fall in love with you to throw me away? You’re going to catch a cold from the ice inside your soul. And I know I can't take one more step toward you, because all that's waiting is regret. So I still ask myself, why do I want you back? 

Decisions

Once upon a time, there was this boy called Anonimous. He could never be sure of anything and he kept on changing his decisions. He grew up and his sense of decision grew up with him. But still, he couldn’t decide himself about love. He though he loved this girl and decided to put their friendship at risk. Until he realized that what he felt wasn’t love, he was just needy. And one heart was broken. Destroyed. He felt really bad about it, and, somehow, he was broken inside too. He wished he could go back in the past, so he decided to build a time machine. After one month trying, he finally finished it. And then he woke up. But he felt something different. His heart was no longer broken, it was full again. He kept asking himself why, but he couldn’t find the answer. Wait. When her heart was broken, his heart was broken. She was miserable and he was miserable. She was crying, he was crying. He dreamed that he could build a time machine to unbreak her heart. Yeah, he loved her, he just hadn’t realized it yet. Well, sometimes you have to lose to miss.

I miss you

Sometimes I think you were the only one who accepted who I was. You didn’t try to change me, I was always happy when I was with you. You could make me feel like I was finally at home. Sometimes I wish you were still here with me, hugging me when I needed, telling wise things that no one else knows. You were the only person that I believed and trusted one hundred percent. Sometimes I wish I could spend more time with you. But I can’t come back in time. No one can. And I can’t bring you back to my life again. I just wonder if you can see me from wherever you are. I just wonder if you are guiding me throw my decisions. Well, I’m pretty sure that every good decision that I have ever made was because of you. Thank you, babe. I will be forever and always be yours. I love you.